Argh, this has probably been one of the worst weeks ever...or maybe it's just because I'm PMSing or something. I don't know, either way, I'm constantly pissed off and I don't even know why. Quite funny, really.

First of all, senioritis has hit me...and hard, which really sucks because it's not like I don't care if my marks go down; I really do, I just wish that they would stay up there without me having to do anything. Speaking of such, I just realized that I'm ambitious and competitive by nature, but a lazy ass. Perhaps that's why I never get anything done.

I was just thinking about life and stuff the other day (because it's good to think, boys and girls), and if someone gave me the chance to look into the future to see what's in store, I would jump at the chance to do it. Don't give me that crap about the excitement of life, etc etc...because I frankly don't want to be wasting my time on anything that isn't going to be rewarding in one way or another. But I guess one could argue that every single experience is rewarding because you're getting experience, however I could tell you now that I'm very money-oriented. For love or for money? That is truly a difficult choice for me to make because love is beautiful, yada yada, but money lets me buy things, and buying things makes me happy. Yes, I am very materialistic and I'm not even going to deny it.

I had a whole train of thought...but I just lost it. Great. Another thing to be pissed off about.

:: Emily 2:16 AM [+] ::